Up before 7. Watched SNL. Better than average - John Mulaney’s delivery/timing, while mannered, is effective. Jack White pretty bad.
Head to LIC/Communitiea around 9. Finished the Assayas on the train - strangely, there’s a lack of particularity to what he says about Debord’s films.
Worked 10 until nearly 4, doing a copyedit on all elements of grant application. When I read the chapters, they seem good!
Couldn’t find headphone adapter on train home. Read Moxley, finished it when I got home around 5. Most appreciated “The Chip” (earns its quietism), a Koch-ish cooking advice poem, and some holdovers from her more difficult style, e.g. “Flutter Out” and “These Houses,” which is effectively inadequate at getting at something difficult about (I think) the co-existence of all temporal moments. Comfortable-in-love poems to Steve, less comfortable ones about a poetic career.
Rested for an hr. Printed something for Bree. Made myself write a few pressing emails (also Facebook/twitter DMs, which is too many inputs).
Dinner out w/ Bree. Local Thai. Picked up bottled water on the way home. I hate the CVS.
Went out again 10-11, daybook poem + looked at “Viable.”
Read last 40 or so p. of Latouche bio, on the Legend of Baby Doe and JL’s death.
Lights out 12.
4.14.18
Up for a while, maybe 4:30-6. Up for good 8:30.
E77 - read a chapter of Latouche, all but the last section of Assayas, and another quarter or so of Moxley. Caught up in daybook - 1 poem rhymed (aabccb). Nice out.
A long and largely indolent afternoon - a failed day. Too much YouTube and social media - hardly a unique problem, but it’s the clearest sign of my malaise.
Spent an hr+ [the length of that Feldman string quartet] trying to get some perspective by typing up a list of all my current incomplete projects and the order in which the big ones need to be tackled. For the curious, these include:
- final submission of grant materials (hard deadline 5/2, want to get it off my desk within the next few days)
- my talk on Salem 66/Tsunami/Your Band Sucks for PopCon (4/26)
- revision of the “Bridge” entry for a reference work (I think they want a draft 5/1, I may negotiate a week)
- returning to the rest of the book (which is my major writing objective for the rest of the year, grant or no)
[on the music front, with no real deadlines except my own wish to move forward]
- add the recent Shrimper cassette to bandcamp, as first step in transferring my “commerce” there
- finish everything that has to be done on the new HH album before mixing; mainly, guest vocals and horn/string parts
- schedule time at Mitch’s, sometime this year, to mix
I also need to return to songwriting — to finishing songs — for my own self-respect and sanity. All of this interacts with the question of when and how long I will be spending tending to my parents in CA over the next few month.
The full list is much longer, and incomplete.
Listened to side 3 of that Blue Note compilation, finally, made some eggs and pasta for dinner.
Went out around 8:30, copyedited Handy ch. until 10.
Came home, dragged out guitar, fooled with “Viable” for 45 min. or so. Holes in the lyric, decisions about changes — as it is now, the bridge goes to a slower 3/4 that will be easier to get into than out of. More trouble than it’s worth, but it’s what I do.
Listened to a podcast about Syria, but I still don’t grasp enough of the background history (which starts during the Ottoman Empire) to grasp the present. (This is not the podcast’s fault.)
Lights out 11:30.
4.13.18
Up 7:30. Nothing of note.
Left at 10. Put a Feldman string quartet on for background, read most of Latouche quota. Elmslie figures frequently by this point.
Coffee/breakfast near library.
Lincoln Center - got there around 11:30.
Worked from 1 to 5:30, with a break for lunch and a trip to the Julliard bookstore across the street.
Didn’t feel like I accomplished much.
Met Jordan Davis in line outside Mercury Lounge to see Caitlyn Smith (and opener Andrea Davidson). Anthropology, for me - she’s a Nashville writer making a bid to be the artist in her own right, and I was curious about what kind of show and backing band you put together for that. Answer: slick.
Had a slice, talked about Jordan’s book.
Read Latouche on train home, back around 11.
Read the Assayas, wasn’t in the mood for poetry.
Lights out 12:30.
4.12.18
Up 7:45. Late-night clips.
E77 around 9. DM exchange w/ Mark about playing a show together (sometime).
Read Golden Apple ch. of Latouche - quick, b/c I know the show and skimmed the synopsis.
Started looking at Jennifer Moxley’s Druthers. Wrote daybook poem.
Home a little after 11. Tidied office, booked plane tix for Seattle/Ontario, made list w/ Bree of about a dozen things she needs me to do, did the easiest 4 right away.
Dithered a lot too, though.
Got ready to leave, but saw my dad had called. Talked to him for 20 min.
Listened to the rest of the Robert Dick podcast on the way to Langston Hughes Library (and while eating a burrito).
Worked on Pop Con 5-7:45. Trying to neaten up into grafs, being kind of indecisive about what to include.
Checked out Kevin Young, The Grey Album and W.J.T. Mitchell, Seeing Through Race (which I didn’t know about, and may not get to).
Home about 8:30.
Quota of Latouche, about 1/4 of Moxley.
Read a few pages of Assayas before bed.
Lights out 12:30.
Moderately depressed the last 2-3 days, possibly longer, to be honest.
4.11.18
Up 6:30. YouTube crap. Listened to a few more tracks on Code Girl (which I’m beginning to follow) and 1/2 of a long 5049 episode w/ flautist Robert Dick.
Gave up on falling back asleep at 8:30.
Helped Bree get her costume down, read a couple of blog posts about the analytic/continental split.
Left at 10, read 1/2 of Latouche quota on train. I’m really going to have to dig out Ballet Ballads.
53st St. Library, worked on Pop Con talk, 11-1.
Went across the street to see The Story of Vernon and Irene Castle (H.C. Potter, 1939) - the most obscure Astaire/Rogers movie, b/c it’s a a straight, ultimately tragic biopic (of the 1910s ballroom dancing pioneers; he dies as a flight instructor in WWI). Nice comic relief from Walter Brennan and Enda Mae Oliver. The songs are period - reminded that I should look up a couple, esp. “On Moonlight Bay” to confirm (or not) my contentions about the rarity of AABA from before the late 1910s. I guess this isn’t why everyone goes to see movies.
Lunch, went back to library.
Read this Taylor remembrance.
Worked, a little desultorily, 4:30-7. Draft is already longer than I can read, but important points are missing. Will start to have cutting soon.
Checked out Oliver Assayas, A Post-May Adolescence.
Finished Latouche quota on train downtown.
Judson Church for a monthly show of “discarded” material called Dead Darlings. Wrote in poetry daybook and finished Rodney’s book while waiting for it to start. Poems that jump out include “schottische” and “mazurka,” which I guess tell you were I’m at, though perhaps my favorite lines are in from earlier in the book (“his first time in ankara”):
[…] we
will not speak in content’s
tenements, a sparrow
who flies and is cheerful
is a poem for all people,
a form to lift the district,
the district’s formal friend.
Elsewhere: “I find it so amazing/that work is too constricting/for poets to be read with full attention/attention in the love from other minds.” You and me both.
Show itself: host and one guest read memoir pieces about their partners’ infidelity; David Cale, who was in Marat/Sade w/ Bree, read a piece on his therapists’ death; Mark Eitzel played a failed song called “Gay Jesus” and 2 others. Said hi to Mark; glimpsed David Nagler but he left before I could find him.
Started the Assayas on the train home - ostensibly a letter to Alice Debora about the author’s way into Situationism. Reads fast; lots of background on the internecine French left, post-’68.
Home about 10:30. Watched an episode of Honey West for a change from Mason.
Lights out 12.